I think people worry about me when I am silent on social media. Being transparent about an illness such as depression means that seemingly every action or lack of action is scrutinized.
Can I just put everyone (or no one) at ease to let you know that I am ok? I mostly write in my brain these days because I am proud mama to a very busy (and very fast) toddler. In my quiet moments… and those are few…. I konk out.
Other than daily trying to outsmart a toddler (ie get ahead of the chaos) my creativity outlet has just had to wait. I don’t anticipate that little mister is going to get any less active so I am going to be pro-active.
I am practicing a 10-10-10 method. Today at 10 (well actually 10:30 I set my timer to just mind dump… publicly ….. eeeeep!!!!!!!) What I put out will be far from perfect. But it will be real. This is my way of retraining myself to pursue authenticity over perfection.
During this time: my computer has been shut off by little man who was telling me “all done, all done.”
little man has sprayed himself in the face with the water hose (we are outside btw)
little man has dipped the doggie pooper scooper in the pool
little man has run off with my phone and had a very animated conversation
Iris ( the fur baby) has chased a bunny and nearly bowled over the wee lad
little man has climbed on top of the hot tub
Worth it? We shall see! See you at 10 tomorrow … and the next day… and the next….
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